CLEANING

you can try
to purify
yourself
by pre-frontal lobotomy
 
or the monotony
of self-imposed
dichotomy
suppress and hide
by taking doses
of bromide
 
or you can try
sensory deprivation
all distractions
expiration
crushed
sightless
soundless
lightless
skin signal-less
senseless
deep distress
consciousness
duress
crucified
tied
all input denied
total mind's slaughter
buried deep
in silent water
 
you can try
chemical
mutilation
or unaesthetised
castration
thus negating
all temptation
 
then perhaps
all will
be still
 
but what
what
what if one finds
in some skewed corner
of the mind
a remnant
of the dark
a residue
so stark
of old lubricity
foul infidelity
a root
and route
of lusts
reality
 
easier far
to let another
nailed
impaled
let him be smothered
eldest brother
in your place
suffer